Idiodic Dicks

4th?

bullshieeeeeeet.

i just need you right now.
more then ever

HEARTHEAPS.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3Flgv0lOYQ
fuck i hate it when my bf and boys perform and im not even there to watch. i was there for this perfomance at regionals but i cant be there for nationals. useless :/ goodluck, not that yous will need it cause yous so got this this year. yous are tight, i seen it myself in prac. love it! im am honest to god number one fan, straaaight up haha loooooooove you buooooooooys!:*

gangsta.

well, yaaaaaaaknow ;D

dont you love it when your getting stoned out of a bong shaped like a scream mask with your fave dance crew? one starts tripping out at leaves. getting all technical and trying to flatten them? then another doesnt stop talking and suprisingly everything that was coming out of his mouth is so sophisticated/intelectual? another starts talking real fob even though hes white as snow? and the other two are just fucked and still talking about "lastnight". then back to concentrate and focus for another couple hours? ka pai boys. its just a part of your identity now ;)

when im not with you
i should be.
home is where i should be, with you.
i miss you so much i can feel the inside of me crumbling.
falling apart from the inside, out.
being without you is unbarable to think of.
its not even an option.
im sorry but in all honesty, i love you more!

ha

cool kat.

m total fucking fave! i love her

i do i do i do-oooooooooo

il be back soon baby :*

im really sad. i dont want to go tomorrow. kinda wish i didnt have to. but i rally do want to. i need a holiday, a break, just some time to kick back. aussie, here i come :)

im forgetting want i in life. spiraling down the unknown and unheard of. i dont know where im going or if im going anywhere at all. i just need to be moving. where evere that happens to be. i want to know but i dont. i want to change but i dont how to. im struggling but happy. i seem lost but im so weirdly found. i think i need more but in more than one way i need less. i seem to think i feel emotion but only one is taking over me. im pretty sure ive found love or maybe in disguise? i want to think i going to where i want but il never know that untill i get there. i want read out words that come from my heart but in all honesty who has one of them these days? they have been given away or shredded to peices, broken or divided. i want to think im okay, but im not.

me

this blog.
its all me.
my life
my way
or the highway
i think for myself
and it may not always be right
but its me
how i want to be
how i choose to be
with out your comments
your opinions
and whatever the fuck else you want to say
i dont need it
i dont want it

bye bye bitch

alice.

i think im a little bit in love with you <3

techn9ne ft. 3six mafia

you know she gets to me. just the littlest glimpse of her or smething associated with her f*cks me off to the point where i cant even bare having any kind of contact with you.

uh . . duh?

sometimes i just call myself stupid. like just now for some weird and stupid reason i decided to go stalk and my bfs comments to his ex. the cute ones too which ended up in tears. ftw. am i fucking crazy? i think i just bring drama and upon myself sometimes. ka pai keys! :L hahahahaha chur

SAVE ME.

burning fire deep within the soul she holds

hurt beyond the tolerance level of she

slippin through

unguided she decided

thinking. over thinking.

dragged and gathered into something so forced

be with me. feel my pain.

feel my hurt. teach me to rebel such feelings.

rid me of all similar distructing feelings.

free me from the hurt.

save me. save me now.

ineed to be in the company of the one.

be with me when i need you.

i call for you when in my deepest and darkest.

dont fail me, please?

feel my pain with me.

catch the tears as the stream down ones face.

see my pain, feel my pain.

rid me from such things.

wrap me in the love you posess.

fill my heart with the happiness i once shared with you.

well share it again.. and again.

just be there. its all i ask of you.

dont let me down. dont let us down.

FULL BUT EMPTY.

its too hard. i though this is what ive always wanted, but its started to become difficult. i should be aware of what i wish for. i thought i was strong, i thought i could handle situations such as these, maybe even worse situations. ive been proven wrong. ultimate factor is i cant be by myself. im actually highly incapable of doing any sort of activity independently. ive never had to do it by myself, ever. im placed in an what appares to be a well stocked enviroment or surrounding, yet iv never felt so lonely in my life.

FUCK IT.

you make me angry. i dont know why but for some reason im so jealous of you. on one hand your just a lil girl who realistically aint got shit on me. but theres something about you that really fucks me off. your admitidly a very beautiful girl, sometimes. but just knowing that youv been in the bed that i visit quite frequently totally creeps me the fuck out to the point where i burst randomly into tears. fuck you! stop being pretty, stop being his ex, stop being someone that he once loved. i hate you. you hurt him. and i was always there when he needed. you never were. thats why hes mine now. all mine! ive recently decided to rid you from my list of problems cause 1) you probs dont evn gva fuck. & 2) cause as of this very second, i dont either.

im yours

i really freaking love you. your sitting right next to me and your really freaking cute. you make me smile. and i think its getting hot in here lol your funny and sweet and you always pay attention to me, and i thank you for it. your beautiful in every single way possible. your diffenately one of my favouritist people like EVER. i could right a novel on how much i love you and that still probably cant properly express the way i feel about you. your everything! my heart, my soul, my everything, its yours. im yours

its a love story. baby, just say yes?

i miss you so much it hurts. im like a bijilion miles away from you. I couldnt even handle it when you were on the other side of the bed. I really do miss you. I thought that maybe i will text you to rid myself of the pain, but it only hurt more. because in the back of head all i was thinking about was how far away you are and how long its gonna be untill i see you again. i feel like freestyling right noe. yes, spitting some rhymes! something i once experienced woth you. and the boys (: i loved that night it was awesome. i love identity. i miss identity. im such a frealk! hha i love you bf. and i miss you so much. home soon. hopefully sooner. well just have to see . .